We just returned from a week long trip to Colorado. It was a much needed vacation as we have not been out of the state in over 2 years. We spent half of the trip in downtown Denver visiting family and the other half in the mountains hiking and enjoying the foreign-to-us geography.
The whole trip was inspiring, mostly in the “our town is so lame” kind of way. We are always teetering on the line of comfort vs. adventure. We grew up here, our families are here, it’s cheap to live here, so why leave? On the other hand, this area is incredibly uninspiring and dull. We could do our jobs anywhere so why not explore the rest of the country.
I’m still struggling with my position of employment. I feel like I’m appreciated at my job and I’m good at it. But I also constantly feel like I can do better, I should be doing something more… inspiring I guess. just more. I have many skills that are not common that I should be utilizing. But it’s too easy to stay where I am so I do. I feel so flaily about it sometimes. I have no idea what I’m supposed to be doing right now and no one can decide except me. This is not where I thought I’d be at 32. I have all the advantages in the world but, as Maria Bamford says, I’m paralyzed by hope.